好奇怪我竟然會上黎xanga...已經有好耐好耐好耐xanga已經係我唔會reach既野.自己唔寫都唔緊要.連上黎的動力都無...以為全部人都轉頭fb的懷抱...我只係living in my world.曾經都覺得我呢世都係唔會用fb 但係都係屈服左...算...我都係無咩stance的人.

返工...其實我搵倒做呢份工的樂趣亦做得開心.但係唔知呢...呢一刻我真係咩都唔想做.戰戰兢兢0係度打xanga個感覺唔好...雖然老細對我都好好俾好多freedom我...就係可能係咁 我成日都覺得對佢唔住...頭先又攞左好多時間做莊務....有時我真係好想同我的莊友講我真係要返工ga唔可以咁做...但係我又覺得我都欠左佢地....呢個又係我的問題.一個好根本的問題

我係一個唔可以free自己的人.not even a second= = it's so hard for me to close my eyes without thinking a thing or even do a little counting

呢個暑假依舊係full packed: 返工,莊務,hall o,unit o....

schedule已經可以預知到八月尾.

好充實裏面我睇倒的係空虛

樣樣掂下 無法投入 唔知有幾耐我對好多野都係無任何感覺

what is me?

life is busy

enjoy it! and find the beauty in everything

咩係教育?教育對呢班細路係咩黎?

教育好神聖 係出路(係佢地可以離開農村的唯一途徑, 係佢地逃避辛勤打工的地方) 係夢想(開拓他們的視野 將他們從一無所知帶到盡知天下事) 教育係0係佢地生命中唯一脫離左農村生活的事 教育唔係唾手可得的野 有一重重的門檻 教育可能係佢地以為會發達的途徑 教育係探求知識的泉源

教育對我係....尋求知識 which is a possession that no one could take away from me

最重要係我覺得教育係教我點諗 教我點去定自己的位置/價值

我唔相信受好高的教育後 我一定會賺大錢 但係我會明白果份人工唔代表我的價值

我覺得教育無佢地睇得咁神聖...有好多陰暗面佢地唔知 (不公平[加分制, 俾錢買學位,借戶籍], 貪污....) 佢地唔會去criticise 呢個教育制度 可能係佢地真係唔識 可能係佢地根本唔知道佢地其實有other choices......佢地唔知果種填鴆鴨式的教育會take away佢地原來的創造性 which i will perceive as a great loss! when i saw them dedicated all their life in textbooks and nothing else, i felt so upset about that...that recalls what i had been doing since i was young .....i wondered if there was someone who felt different and want to different things like arts or sports rather than studying .......this is hard to answer. it is already so hard to pursuit dream in hk and it would be an unattainable dream for students like them who have never seen a bright future in front of them.

八日去左廣東懷集去體驗貧窮 每一日都有一dd的感受 而家傾莊都係為呢班小朋友 初初諗住上完團返黎會好火熱 要為佢地做d野 但係唔知點解我又無好似其他莊員咁...傾莊無俾我一個好開心的感覺 愈來愈多問題 但係我又唔識點樣講出黎...好多concept野我都唔知我可以0係邊度搵答案  我淨係覺得好混沌 唔知自己諗緊咩 ......

就黎又要走...聽日要上廣東一個好窮的地方考察 5/1先返...唔係好放得低香港的野 好多人好多事都未做 同行的人我又唔係好熟 真係唔係好想去...呢個sem真係好快就完....好似無抖過咁....唔想開sem牙!!!!!!

臨走想將之前的野打一打....人大左好多感覺都好blur...好多時做左咩都無咩記憶...我想記低一d野..

28/12 同inez一齊睇戲---twilight.....charlotte又唔知去左邊(你張飛0係我度)

去左杭州之後 好唔慣 唔慣起身見唔倒你地幾個 好想痴住你地 唉唉 又唔知幾時有得見...

同彭彭去左modern toilet度食野

 野食都可以 d佈置真係幾好 好有心思 everywhere, everything都係toilet :bathtub,馬桶 沖涼用品... 好幾棧鬼!

好多尿dau

之後睇twilight 個中文名好誤導 未睇以為係動作或驚栗片....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Pattinson

twilight...好romantic(一齊走上好高的樹上欣賞呢個世界 一齊訓0係草地上迎接飄雪....但係現實我諗都難會做倒)對白好有詩意唔係d流於pop culture 好純潔的愛 如果唔係first sight love我會仲鍾意.......套戲令我有d不安...robert pattinson個樣真係好似vampire 佢d屋企人仲似 點解可以白到咁....不過james可以搵個幾二個做....呢個交唔倒戲....我鍾意個ending+期待下集....

27/12 church 懷舊party +陪daddymummy出去睇燈飾+返hall

i did dress up a bit and i knew i was so weird!!!!!! stop laughing! but the party was great fun and i enjoyed it...happy to see everyone was happy and involved in the games.

今年christmas第一次睇燈飾 同屋企人的感覺 都開心 好耐無同佢兩老一齊影相....有時真係覺得我呢個女好唔掂....媽媽好似細路要我0係咁影相 爸爸呆下呆下 影相真係好似一個傻瓜...佢地兩個真係生0係另一個時代 有時對住佢地真係好frustrated  唔明點解佢地可以咁大鄉理 但係你地就係好愛我的人....i am leaving now...最內疚都係我好少同你地一齊....

update later